Where It All Began

As a child, I never thought I would endure some of the things I went through from then until now. From childhood trauma, to getting introduced to prescription/ street drugs to mask the mental health illnesses, to being incarcerated in one of the worst prisons in the state of Florida, & to still trying to find my purpose in putting the addiction behind me.

If they would have told me that they would give me a life sentence in prison & cut both of my arms off, I still would have tried to mask my mental illlness with street drugs. I felt hopeless. Nobody could show me the way. I had to find my own way. I'm very blessed to have the people I have in my life today. Sometimes it just takes one person to understand & empathize what you are going through. That makes all of the difference. From having that one person in your life that cares to finding things that you enjoy to replace the street drugs with & the self respect that comes with learning that" if I wouldn't let anyone else treat me this way, then why I am treating myself this way? "Just like others, I've had hundreds of friends that have succumb to the disease of addiction. So many that it has made me somewhat numb when receiving the news. So maybe, what I am trying to say is that throughout the craziness it is important to have someone & something(s) to keep you grounded & keep the thoughts of getting high at bay. My alternatives I've come to learn are grounded around mind, body & spirit. Working out, running, taking certain vitamins & healthy supplements, breaking false perceptions (especially "the victim" mentality) & knowing that there is an organziation in the universe of why things are going on the way that it is. In later blogs, I will take you down memory lane of situations & circumstances in my life so that maybe you can feel a sense of knowing that there is someone out there going through the same thing you are.